slow burning rage

[marcel guldemond]

ok, this is a bit of an unedited rant.

i'm reading greg palast's 'the best democracy money can buy'. holy f*ckin shit does that stuff make me mad. bush stealing the election, the imf and the wto raping and pillaging third world countries, corporations ripping masses of people off, etc. ad nauseum. i know i should be all ghandi about it and work with peace and love, not anger. but f*ck. at least there are some people like palast around.

this is also why i occasionally buy harper's but won't subscribe, because that magazine also puts me into a funk of rage. those fits take about a month to subside, which is about when the next issue arrives and I start all over again.

currently i'm nearly lulled into a sub/urban soporific state. eking by. trying to get some drawing done. but i have bills to pay.

of course, there is a whole other world of things that need to be done, especially evident in books like this. but where does this rage come from? is it self-righteous anger and frustration? is it legitimate, or is it some self-centered western middle class psychological spaz out?

if it's legitimate, then what to do about it? i commute to work for an autoparts company. i use gas and freeways everyday so i can figure out more efficient ways to get autoparts out the door. and i'm pretty much stuck there for a while because of the bills i have to pay, and will continue to have to pay for a long long time. (which means i'll have very little time to work on serializer, unfortunately)

in anycase, it's good to be able to read something that reminds you that there are important things to care about, and that moral and ethical issues are important. it isn't just business as usual. it isn't the end of history. that the corporate world is f*cking the rest of us over, that governments and the people in them do matter. that we can do things like abolish slavery. that despite the fact that there's a price gouging commodifying corporation behind everything in my car the experience i get from a beautiful song on the radio can't be touched by any one of those corporations.

of course, i'll be full of the-urge-to-do-something about it for a while, and then that will slowly subside.


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Marcel Guldemond
Aporia Press
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